heartache

this time of the year pains me. more so in the last couple of years because time seems to be flying by. i'm not gonna get deep and philosophical about life and death and air freshners and shit. i just think we need more time. add a couple more hours on to each day. tack on two more weeks to the end of the year. lets create a month called boobtober or geelember or even fraqtelenguinktylinquer. yeah, that last one's kinda tough, but my point here is we need more time. we needed it as a kid to ride our bikes:

me: bet you can't clear that tree branch
buddy: fuck you dude, i did a table top over that last week.
me: you did not! you totally endowed it, bitch!

we needed it in highschool on those ever so important and awkward nights in the back seat of the car:

me: shit, it's late and your dad's gonna kill me...
her: don't worry, it's only 11 o'clock, we still have plenty of time
me: then why do you still have your bra on?

we needed it in florida on spring break:

me: woooooo! yeahhhhhh! julie brown, you rock!!!!!
julie brown: no!!!! LBG, YOU ROCK!!!!! wuba, wuba, wuba, bitch!!!!!!!

and we need it now. i just checked out gamespy's 2004 fall preview of pc games coming in the next few months (thus, the fall comment) and my heart is beginning to ache. not just because there are at least 7 games in there that I WILL purchase and play and won't have the time to do anything else but call in sick, quit showering and ignore my family, but because there are those less fortunate souls like tex; despite his ability to make better judgement calls in life, chose not to and went to law school instead. again, this makes my heart ache, because i know he's just as big a fanatic as i am and it crushes me to know he won't be able to play any of these games. he thinks it's cruel that i sent him the link showing all the games but i sent it because i care. i want him to know that there is a whole other world outside law school and it's full of aiens, jet packs and large breasted women in bikinis who like to beat the shit outta each other. it's a good life and some of us are fortunate to be a part of it. tex will learn that some day and learn to make better decisions.

with that being said, i wanted to get everyone involved in my push to petition for the addition of fraqtelenguinktylinquer and remember that it's for a good cause. do it for the games, do it for those 18 year olds trying to get laid, do it for tex or just do it for yourself, but make it happen.

wuba, wuba, wuba, bitch!